Yaay!!! Preview for his third upcoming single, Lost Angels, is out! It sounds pretty awesome! Old Gackt with new Gackt twist XD. And the other happy pink tunes are starting to grow on me. I'm singing them in my head most times now @@. It's wonderful how happy tunes can put you into a good mood eventhough you feel like crap and left out because the whole world is deserting you for no reason whatsoever XD XD XD. Hahaha, but, yeah. Go Gackt! I knew you could do it!!! XD Perhaps I should trash all those hardcore JRock songs in my playlist and up the number of happy pop tunes. Haha. Kidding. No way in hell would I ever go as low as to listen to crap Jpop shit XD. But there is always an exception when it comes to Gackt. Always 8D.

I've nothing to say. No, really. Accounts today was TEH SH!TZ. I'll be dying pretty soon, and not because I can't answer the paper. I'll be dying for completely different reasons. You don't quite need to know the reason. My death won't be much of an effect to your everyday life anyways ^^.

Russell Peters. I'm in need of some laughs. The world's been laffing too much at me these days. It's time I had a few laughs myself.



I wouldn't want to be touched by those hands. Haha.

Was watching Kagrra mvs on Youtube two days ago when I saw Acid Black Cherry's mv in the related list. Clicked on it for the heck of it. Downloaded the album the morning after.

Okay, so Acid Black Cherry's a solo project by the vocalist of Jrock band Janne da Arc...or something like that. BLACK LIST is not the latest album, but that doesn't matter because, dude, this album is flipping awesome. I haven't quite finished listening to it yet, but the songs are very rock. The electric guitars' love <3. The first song I heard was Black Cherry- and oh ma Akito. Another sex song! Doesn't quite beat Gackt's Vanilla, but it's nearly just as catchy XD. The guitar in it is awesome. And you should go watch the mv as well. I was fooled into thinking he was really a trans, but when he tossed the wig into the camera...haha. That was really cool. Go watch it. Naow ^^. SPELL MAGIC is also a great track, but technically if you're a biggy Jrock fan you should go download this album. It'll quench your Jrock thirst. Haha. Wait. Download d'espairsray's albums first. They're better. Haha. I was watching some Slipknot video on MTV last night, and I nearly laughed. Perhaps it was one of their more watered down tracks, but if it ain't, then, they pale in comparison with d'espairsray. They'll turn white beside dir en grey. Haha. Alright, cue for Slipknot fans to throw frying pans at me now XD.

Done ranting for now. Life suddenly seems so empty. It's that or maybe it's because no one ever seems to use MSN anymore. Haha. Account's paper tomorrow. Woohoo! Wish me luck. I shall attempt to pass because my teacher promised a pressie to anyone who passes. Haha. Don't want to let her down. Though letting people down seems to be the only thing I'm good at XD XD XD. Whaat? I couldn't spell caffeinated! And I drink coffee close to every morning!!! XD XD. Not that that has anything to do with what I'm crapping about right now. Oh, remind me to post up the photos asap. I took far too little pictures. But that's just because so little people came to show their support. Oh well. AT LEAST THEY CAME! XD. Can't quite thank them enough. Haha.

Okay, off I go for now.


A Jewel and...today's a very good day to die.

Two visual kei bands with me here. On my left we have Kagrra with their new album, Shu, and on my right we have Kra, also with their latest album Life~Today is a very good day to die~.

Okay, Kagrra first. Man, their album's pretty swanky. Haha. Shu, if I'm not mistaken, translates simply to Jewel, and I must say that overall this album's indeed a real gem. The first 3 songs are very oriental-fused, and the following songs are average cool visual-kei-ish songs. There're plenty of nice melodies, but the 2nd track, Uzu, caught my attention most. It's an amazing song. And the video clip's awesome as well. Haha. N0, really! One of their guitarists (or was it their bassist? @@ Vid was too low quality to discern) played the koto (a traditional Japanese stringed instrument, like the Chinese gu-zhen..oh go Google it yourself XD) AND his guitar throughout the whole song. He was going koto-guitar-koto-guitar-koto-guitar. Hahaha. But to acquire such skill to switch to two different instruments is what's most amazing. Haha. Ren is also a nice song, and I'd say the rest of the songs are nice as well. A thumb up for them :3.

Next, Kra! Uhm, well, this coming from a fan of d'espairsray, I have to say that the songs in Life~Today is a very good day to die~ are more pop-rock XD. Kinda like a slightly watered down version of Abingdon Boys School, minus the retarded Japlish. They have a pretty nice style though, with really catchy tunes. The vocalist is slightly...cute? His voice I mean. Well, I suppose it's because of his height. Haha. He's very much shorter than his bandmates, which make him look really funny XD. Anyway, yeah, catchy tunes, cool electric guitar, what m0re can you want? Beast tune is pretty nice, though not as beasty as I thought it would be. I also like Rumble Fish, which is a pretty odd title for such a nice song XD. Oh, and Marry's a nice song as well! It reminds me slightly of one of those happy American pop-rock sterotypical boy bands- a first from a Japanese band. Haha. And there're also some nice guitar-filled songs with piano accompanaiments like Onigi no Uta. So, my other thumb up for them! XD

Alright, now on to my own news. Spelling Bee was today! Nah, didn't win. Got knocked out at the 3rd round- couldn't spell caffeinated. Well, I can now XD. I switched the 'e' and 'i'. Oh well. It seemed right in my mind. Haha. Anyway, I had lots of fun. My sister and Shane came (naturally), Eugene stayed on for the whole thing, wearing a self-customized Giordano shirt that said '-Jo- <3 #1 Fan' or something like that. It looks a whole lot fancier in real life than in here. Haha. A couple of friends came and Kay Ai came along as well! I received a few smses from other friends the night before wishing me luck and stuff. Man, I feel bad for having let you guys down XD. But anyway, a big big big BIG THANK YOU to all you people that sent me your powersss!!! Haha. It meant (and still does) a lot to me, so, yeah. Thank you ^^.

Anyway, school managed to bag 1st place in school category yet again! Whee! This time I shall make sure the money does not go to the school rebuilding fund. They don't deserve it. Haha. Whaat? If they're not going to help us reap thousands from the anime convention, they don't deserve any ks from us. I didn't see any of them dumbapple teachers supporting us today =_=. So...yeah. That pretty much ends my ramblings.

I guess I'm done for now. I'm feeling sleepy and dissapointed. Nah, not because I didn't win (I don't give two hoots about that- dude I went ther empty headed. Literally), but because...well...hahaha. Oh nevermind. You go figure it out yourself, you useless piece of crap XD.



That's Gackt by the way.
Just thought you should know.

Everyone knows I'm a bad influence.

Who knew I'd end up influencing my own mother.

It all started two nights ago, when I was eating at a table. My morsel plopped out of the plate and I accidentally said 'fuck' a bit too loud. Loud enough for my mother to hear it anyway.
She didn't start screaming though. I guess she's more used to me than I thought she was. Anyway, I still feel bad about it, cause the table happened to be in front of the altar.

Next morning, my dad and sis went off for tai chi while I killed myself trying to do the mid year history paper. Back home during lunch, dad and sis started telling mum and me about their adventures. About my sister standing behind a certain old woman who farted while doing tai chi. Family members start discussing the fate of said farting old woman should I have been the one standing behind her.

Next thing you know:

MUM: Haiyo, Joanne will start shouting " WHAT THE HELL! WHAT THE FUCK MAANNNN!!!"

DAD, SISTER, JOANNE: O______________O;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

Guess who got the blame for my mum's sudden swearing-for-no-reason-whatsoever.


Listened to Ayumi's latest album, NEXT LEVEL. It's pretty! The album cover. Then again, Ayu-chan's always pretty so there's no surprise. But why would anyone wear fake fingernails on gloves I have no idea @.@. So, yes, the album's pretty nice. I like it much better than her previous albums, Secret and GUILTY. The songs in this album's very dance-techno, with some more-rockish songs like Rule. The song Next Level is nice as well. Though her video clips are getting more and more un-original. Haha. The Sparkle video had her in a very Britney-Oops-I-Did-It-Again red catsuit, and the Curtain Call vid had the Christina-Aguilera-walking-towards-the-camera thing going on. What is the world coming to? Mum's getting influenced by bad company, a J-Pop queen's influenced by American stars, another J-Rocker is turning into a girl.

....I guess, J-Music and my mother are simply moving on to the [NEXT LEVEL].



Koakuma Heaven


It might just grow on me in the long run, but for now, I think I'm going to go bang my head on the wall and cry my eyes out.


It's pink.

And shiny.

And it has cute voices in it.


And kitties.

And a dotted-heart border.




[Wake me up. Wake me up. Wake me up この夢から...]


Rains expected to increase by 90% in the next two months


WHY GACKT WHY???????!!!!!!!!!!

Of all things to happen. This. I TOLD you didn't I?! Fate and I will never ever go together. Something has to get fucked up one way or another.

Yes, I'm judging singles by their covers. But, seeing as this is Gackt-sama we're discussing, I don't see why I shouldn't.

Gackt-sama, I'm praying that those tracks in your upcoming singles are full of your sweet rock-goodness. At the very least let it sound like Kimi Ga Oikaketa Yume or Kimi no Tame Ni Dekiru Koto. Don't turn into a bubblegum-pop-princess. Please. You are one of the very very few reasons why I live. Don't go shortening my lifespan by a couple of years.

I think I'm overreacting. But then again, wouldn't you? It's like me turning into a guy, or seme-chan getting boob implants and turning into a pornstar with a snazzy name like Peach Pie Princess or something.

Yes, I am definitely overreacting.



A Reason

Why I think I'll be single for the rest of my life.

I dislike commitments. I don't like getting tied down to something permanently. And that's extremely ironic, because sometimes I just want time to stop and for things to stay as they are forever. Is there a difference to that I wonder? Hm. Whatever. But, yes, that's just how humans are. Twisted in every fucking way imaginable.

I can tolerate you. Once. Twice. Three times. Maybe more, depending on my mood. But make it a daily habit and I will ignore you. Particularly if you're not very close to me to begin with. Don't ask me why. I can't even understand it myself. It's just me being craptastically retarded.

But, saying that, don't even bother expecting me to apologise because I sure as hell won't.

Teenagers these days. Pfft.

I curse whoever who came up with the whole theory that 'being emo is effing cool and it makes me different from everyone else because no one ever understands me'. I curse that person to complete and utter hell.

In this screwed up world of individualism, being what is considered 'normal' makes you stand out most in the crowd.

The search for individuality has given birth to very very very selfish brats who only think of themselves. The very phrase 'no one understands me' says it all.

You can't expect me to give you 100% attention everytime you ask for it. You can't expect the phone/computer/anything and everything else to be waiting upon you 24/7.

We all have our own lives. Live it to the fullest. I know lots of people who would like to be given the chance to live again. Unfortunately they're dead and buried 6 feet under. Don't screw your life up on the pretext of 'wanting to be different', feel sorry for yourself and think that 'no one understands you', then go round whining about it to everyone else. That's not fair for anyone.

You made yourself difficult to understand. Or rather, you make molehills into mountains, and when someone points out the truth, you brush it off by saying 'you don't understand'. Because you're pissed off that someone found out you're just being an over-exaggerated little piece of shit. The truth hurts. Face it. You brought it down on yourself in the fucking first place anyway.

I've learnt from painful first hand experience that if you want something, you go get it yourself. You don't just sit around moping and waiting for someone to notice you and shower you with attention. No one will. As my wonderful teacher once pointed out bluntly, 'you're not as important as you think you are. You think people will look at you? Of course not, they have their own lives, they have far more important things to do'. You won't just end up being on top of everyone's priority list. You can't expect everyone to make you their most important person in life. You have to work for it, and prove that you are worthy of such an honorable position. And sitting in a corner and waiting for someone to look in your direction is not the way to go.

.... What the hell is the point of this post I wonder?....