Bah

Yeah, I know, I know, I haven't been blogging. I haven't been journalling. Heck sem 2 is almost gone and almost nothing about it was recorded. What the fuck. I'm angry at myself, because I know that one day I'll be looking back on this, trying to fish cherished memories from murky waters, only to realize that I can't seem to find them. Fuck it.

Well, final project (yes it's been that long) is in full swing; two more weeks to go to final presentation. My group and I are getting along pretty well, but I'm hoping like hell that I can make it to the...event that I want to go to on the 2nd of April. I joined a Campap competition last year and I am shortlisted as a winner and have to attend the award ceremony. There will also be a 2 day exhibition in Times Square Penang (fuck yes, it's in Penang. I've no idea how I plan to make my way there. Probably fashion myself a pair of wings out of all the recyclable materials we've been collecting for our final project and flap myself across DX), that and 365/366 artworks will be compiled into a book. Yes, it's a big thing. I wasn't actually aware that it was such a big thing when I first joined. Oh well. Anyway, yeah, the only thing stopping me from going is the wonderful fact that my final project presentation is on the 4th of April. Big big big wtf. The whole semester has been a continuous series of big wtf moments, apparently. Let's see how the great Joanne shall pull this one off, haha.

What else is up? Temperatures, tempers, testosterone. Lol. I think I've been hanging around guys too much these days. I'm going to end up being one of the guys soon, if I haven't been included before that is =P. But it's so much more fun working with people that you can joke and mess around with. Though of course there were the multiple moments when I wish I could just throw random things about (and do- only to hit faces and send glasses flying XD), but all in all it's an awesome experience to work with great people with VERY different ideas.

It's tiring though. This whole semester has been. In fact, at the height of all this excitement, I have to say that this final project moment is a lot more relaxed compared to the beginning of semester. I have time to actually sit down and contemplate the direction I'm heading to, even if I'm not sleeping as much as I wish I could.

We actually have a lot more time to go around and have fun. Just yesterday I went off to the Community club to watch my classmates + one lecturer play futsal. It was highly entertaining, rest assured. After that the whole bunch of us + housemates went to the longest pasar malam somewhere in Cheras (16 of us, imagine that). Then after that we all went to Cyber for tea and chat at 12am. Tiring, considering that I ended up only sleeping at 3, but completely worth it. Today (or is it yesterday? It's been today for almost half and hour now, haha) my group members and I went to Putrajaya in hopes of being able to see some hot air balloons. Ran out of luck though. We did see some awesome giant hamster balls but we didn't play because not all of us were keen on it (I for one wasn't into their idea of them bashing me with transparent balls of gigantic proportions).

There are so so so many events I wish I'd recorded, but I haven't and now the memories of them are already beginning to fade. I'm not in the right mind to search for them now. No. I don't actually want to think now. Because when I do I'll only think of what ifs and oh nos and why nots. I don't want to do this. I don't want to ruin something that's going on okay all the while. I'm afraid of jumping into the unknown; I'm afraid of not being prepared.

This is stupid. It wasn't supposed to turn into an emo post right at the very end. What the hell.