Feeling Scroogey

And it's that time of the year, folks.
One more blessed month to one of the most celebrated holidays of the year. It's time for the preparations! The Christmas present shopping that is.With what funds I've no idea. Maybe I should just rob
a Christmas charity box
my parents save up like crazy and/or get a job. So many things to do, so little time.
I wonder how this year's holiday season will be like. I wonder how Christmas will be like. But, as Cassandra said in I Capture A Castle, 'when things mean a great deal to you, exciting anticipation just isn't safe.'

I can't believe I quoted that out of my head. I have lost count completely how many times I've read that book ever since I got it in 2008. 20, 40, 100 times? All I know is that I seem to be able to recall lengthy passages from it in my head. I can actually read the book in my mind when the physical book is not with me. Scary shyt, lol.

I haven't made any Christmas-related wishes this year, and I know I won't be able to see a branch from the Christmas tree this year (lé sigh). But it'd be nice to see some ginger biscuits, peppermint tea and jazzy Christmas carols somewhere along the way.

Maybe I don't even actually want to wish. Because I know how much my heart will break when the wish doesn't come true.